Dis-appointment

Well, the bad news is: I went into my dentist appointment today and it turns out that my bridge came out the wrong tint. It didn't match any of my other teeth so it stuck out like a sore thumb when he held it up. He called the lab where the bridge was made to see if there was anything else they could do to help me out.

The good news is: Yes I will be able to get a better bridge made that will be different materiel so it doesn't turn out such an awkward color.

I won't lie, finding out that it wasn't completely happening today really disappointed me. I got emotional laying there without my beautiful new tooth. After talking about it for a few minutes I decided that there was no reason to be upset. It's going to happen. Just not today.
I'm grateful that my dentist was willing to help me find the best option and not just glue the stupid discolored one in. I decided to have him bond this one into place just to last me a few weeks. {I really don't want to put that damn retainer back in}
On Monday I'll go get a new impression made and in a few weeks I'll finally have this bridge. Finally.

In other news: tonight was my sisters rehearsal dinner and the entire party almost got blown away by the wind. It was crazy!

Dress: Wet Seal
Sandals: Forever Young Shoes

Bridge of Light

When I was in 8th grade I got my braces off after a year and a half of having them off. After they were taken off I was given a retainer to wear until I turned 18. The reason for the retainer was because one of my front teeth never grew in, so it had a false attached to it. I got told that when I was 18, after my teeth had finally settled permanently, I could get an implant. 

Well, I turned 18 seven years ago and I have yet to get an implant. The reason is simply because its insanely expensive. Since I have yet to scrounge up $3,000 for a tooth I've had to stick to the retainer since 8th grade. 

That's twelve years.

Needless to say I've been very self conscious about it for those past twelve years. I don't look my age because all you see is metal when I smile. I hate it, but at the same time I won't go out in public without it because I don't have a tooth!

All I've ever heard about is the implant. In the last twelve years of wearing this stupid retainer nobody ever told me about a Maryland bridge.

Until I got my root canal.

When I spoke to this new dentist he gave me multiple options instead of the implant. For the first time I actually heard of something other than what I was stuck with.

We discussed the pros and cons of the bridge and came to the decision that it would be the best option for me until I can afford the actual permanent implant. 

For the remainder of my appointment he took a mold of my teeth and set up the time for me to come back. It was supposed to be a two week process for the bridge to be made so they scheduled me 3 weeks away so that it would be 100% ready for me.

Yesterday I got a phone call saying it was done early. I'm going in tomorrow to get in put in.

I don't know if anyone really understands what this is like but I am so unbelievably excited. This is something that has held me back and dented my confidence since I was 13 years old. I've hate smiling, I've hated telling people why I still wear a retainer, I've hated correcting people when they guess my age. It's been nothing but a pain and it's finally going to be gone tomorrow. 

 

Dress: Wet Seal
Hat: Wet Seal

Shoes: Forever Young

Ramones and floral

Today it was hot and windy. After I got off work I didn't even want to do anything but just lie down. Not sure why I'm so tired today because I got about 9 hours of sleep, but I feel like I just want to go to bed and it's only 7:00.
I literally threw this outfit together in about 10 seconds. I like how it turned out considering my main focus was getting my little brother and myself to work on time.

Stella likes to model with me.

Top: Wet Seal
Skirt: Wet Seal
Shoes: Wet Seal
Necklace: Wet Seal
Earrings: Charlotte Russe

Booties and cookies

The problem with having a big butt is that it makes mini skirts extra mini. It's not too bad in the winter when I can wear tights, but wearing tights when it's 80 degrees outside is not an option. I ended up needing to put on a pair of shorts to go under this skirt because otherwise the world would have gotten a peep show all day.

I got to have a girls night with Crystal and Jerrica today. I made Root Beer Float cookies, Crystal brought pizza and we played Cards Against Humanity while watching America's Next Top Model reruns. I'm so glad we were able to plan it, I had a lot of fun. Those girls make me feel a lot better! It's so hard for us to get together nowadays what with all our weird schedules and the fact that we don't live down the street from each other anymore. I miss being able to have craft nights, or grab lunch, or go to the park whenever we wanted to. Being grown ups with careers and college and husbands makes life a lot more busy. They leave to go visit Randi on Saturday for the weekend in California. I'm pretty sad that I can't join them, but I simply couldn't budget it. Hopefully I can see her soon though, I really miss her.

Top: Thrifted
Vest/Skirt/Shoes: Wet Seal

Skirts and caps

Today my littlest step-sister graduated high school! It's so crazy that she is 18 years old, graduated, has her CNA certification and is getting married next year. I'm really proud of her.
Graduation ceremonies are pretty dang boring though, I remember sitting through mine but I don't remember a single speech. I think someone quoted Dr. Seuss? I think it's great to celebrate academic achievement, and to have the class valedictorian speak. It's just a lot to sit through. Especially when the building is sweltering hot.
Not to mention Mekaila's last name starts with a T so we had to sit through a whole list of A-S's that we don't even know. But hey, they're someone's kid! So, 'grats class of 2014!

Mekaila getting her diploma

I loved this outfit a lot. I had been looking everywhere for a tulle skirt that was calf length, with absolutely no luck. Because I refused to spend $40 + on it. I was searching online and found this adorable one on Ebay for only $10! I love it so much I want to buy another.

Top: Charlotte Russe
Skirt: Ebay
Shoes: Rue 21
Belt: Wet Seal

Shrunk

 Husband accidentally shrunk this shirt by drying it. I was pretty devastated because I love it {and it was only $5!}. Luckily I was able to tuck it into a skater skirt and you couldn't tell it was awkwardly shrunken.Taran learned his lesson with laundry and will no longer wash anything of mine unless it's underwear or sweats. Bless his heart, he felt really bad about the whole situation.

Hat: Wet Seal
Top: Cotton On
Skirt: Wet Seal
Shoes: Rue 21

Dreams, Feathers and Kimonos

As of April 28th it's been officially a year since my grandma passed away. It's been a rough year without her, we all definitely needed to adjust. While it has gotten easier with time, it's still definitely still painful not having her here. Since the one year of her death I've been dreaming about her constantly. Some dreams will be about normal days with her still here, as if nothing had happened and some are about her still being so sick. The last few days of her life were miserable and I would never wish that type of death on anybody, so when I dream about her still being in that position I feel a little relieved waking up knowing she's free of pain. However when I dream about her still healthy, going out to dinner together or something simple I wake up heartbroken.
It's hard. I think since she's been on my mind so much lately my subconscious won't turn off those thoughts either.
I miss her every day but I think with every passing year I'll smile more knowing how much love she had for all of us, and all the memories I have of her.

Anyway
On to something a little less sad.

I got these earrings when I worked at Charlotte Russe, which was back in 2011. They've still been on the jewelry card since that day I brought them home. Yesterday was the first day I wore them ever.
The funny thing Is I've done this more than once....not the best habit to keep.
Also I'm obsessed with this kimono style shawl. So cute.

Shawl: Wet Seal
Shorts: Wet Seal
Sandals: Charlotte Russe
Earrings: Charlotte Russe
Necklace: Forever 21
Rings: H&M and Icing
Sunnies: Wet Seal

Jogger Pants & Red Heels

Haven't had much to blog about lately. There's some personal stuff going on in my life that I am going to keep within my family. Other than that nothing is too thrilling.
I was pretty iffy about jogger pants at first. Some girls can rock them and look amazing, so I wasn't sure if my short legs could do them justice. After some tweaking I figured out that they are super cute dressed down with some fun heels. {Now my only concern is getting rid of my beer gut - ha!} I love these heels too, but whoever made them obviously didn't think the stitching through because ouch.

Top: Wet Seal
Pants: Wet Seal
Earrings: Wet Seal
Necklace: Gift from hubs
Heels: Forever Young Shoes

Dr Pepper, Bridesmaid Dresses and Zumba

Shawl: Wet Seal
Dress: Charlotte Russe
Wedges: Charlotte Russe
Necklace: Gift

I've come to the realization that I need to be a little more fit. Now let me go ahead and point out that I do not think I'm fat, at all. I know I am petite, I always have been. But I've definitely put on a bit since I got married a year ago. It wouldn't be a big deal, because I'm pretty comfortable with my body, but when you have a closet full of clothes that are all a size too small it's a little frustrating.
I'm a terribly picky eater so it would be really hard for me to go on an actual diet, not to mention I love junk food. Especially Dr Pepper....it's my biggest vice. I'm sure most of the reason I've gained weight is because of my obsession with Dr Pepper.
This June my sister is getting married and I'm going to be a bridesmaid. Last week I went to the dress shop and ordered my size, which was actually the size that I plan on being for the wedding. For the next few weeks I plan on working my butt off (literally) by actually using my gym membership and going to some Zumba classes as well. Also I need to start eating better and talking myself into trading Dr Pepper for water. Mostly for health...and my jeans. That bridesmaid dress fitting is my motivation!

New hair

Blazer: Charlotte Russe
Skirt: Wet Seal
Shoes: Forever Young

 

 

I finally got my hair fixed up! You have no idea how thrilled I am about this. It's been over a year since I've even had a trim. About 2-3 inches was just damaged split ends, it was pretty gross. I got a good trim, most of it thinned out and a deep auburn color dyed on it. I feel a little guilty going somewhere that isn't my normal stylist but I was in need of something so I went to a friend/coworker who is still in cosmetology school. She did a fabulous job though! She will definitely do well in that field.

Hades

Dress: Rue 21
Cardigan: Wet Seal
Shoes: Forever Young
Headband: Wet Seal
Necklace: Wet Seal

Today I thought it would be fun to participate in Disneybounding! If you don't know what Disneybound is, first of all how dare you! Second of all go here.
Basically Disneybound is a blog run by this adorable girl who creates outfits based on Disney characters, songs, parks, rides etc. She has fantastic taste and is so creative when it comes to mixing styles to represent each outfit. I've been a big fan of hers since she first started and now it's blown up everywhere! She has a March challenge going on where you participate in a new outfit each day. I'm a bit behind and I'm not super creative when it comes to creating Disney themed outfits, but I decided to give it a shot today!
I chose Hades from Hercules, and I'm quite pleased with how it turned out!

Check out her blog and give Disneybounding a shot! It's fun to see what you can come up with. I have a couple more ideas of what I could do so stay tuned!

Shots and Thoughts

Top: Cotton On
Cardigan: Wet Seal
Leggings: Head Over Heels
Shoes: Wet Seal
Necklace: Forever 21

This week started out kind of rough, by week I mean the actual work week, since I start work on Tuesdays I still tend to get a case of the Mondays. Tuesday can't disguise itself as much at it seems to sound nicer than Monday.
It was one of those days where trivial things pile up and make you feel ultimately defeated by the end of the day. Mine started with the dumbest of dumb things: the new dress I bought didn't fit like I wanted it too, not important really but I ended up needing to rush around the house finding something else to wear. I ended up being a bit late for work which is frustrating for me because I've been working so hard on my punctuality and I've been doing great. The rest of the day was mostly spent battling anxiety, and if you know how anxiety is then you know that it's the worst. I just wanted to start the day over on a different foot or go back to bed completely. At the end of the day I just had to tell myself to make the next day better.
Yesterday was better, I just needed to take Stella to the vet for her rabies shot. I also had the vet look at her leg because she has been randomly limping. She hates car rides, they make her so nervous, so I felt like a jerk making her go all the way to a new place. I've kept her too sheltered I think, because she get incredibly anxious around new people and new things. She was well behaved at the vet thankfully. Just scared. It didn't take long and she was definitely glad to be home after. I had to run to work after so I spent the entire day worrying about her, scared that she might have given herself a panic attack or had a bad reaction to the shot.
Also, might I add because it seemed to be a reoccurring event this week {see the post about my Sunday issues} that once I got to work my shoe broke. That was lovely. At least they were older and had some good wear in them. C'est la vie!

Today actually felt normal, which was nice. Work went smoothly despite it being insanely busy {I am not a fan of back-to-back calls...yuck} and luckily I had no wardrobe malfunctions.

Chocolate Shakes, Emergency Dresses, and Basement Apartments

Scarf: Wet Seal
Top: Wet Seal
Dress: Ross
Shoes: Rue 21

I woke up Sunday morning feeling 100x less gross and 100% willing to spend time with my best friends. We decided on a dinner date at Red Robin where I felt like treating myself to a pretty large milkshake {which was delicious by the way}
All was fine and dandy until I realized why I had been feeling so sick the past few days, and no it is not pregnancy - it's quite the opposite of pregnancy. Let's just say I realized why I had been so sick while wearing white shorts. Get the gist? Ok then, I don't need to go into detail. We made an emergency pit-stop at Ross because it was literally the only thing open besides Wal Mart at 6:00 on a Sunday in Utah. Luckily I was able to get in there and grab this cute dress that was on clearance for only $8.
Awkward situation? Yes. Learn my lesson? Yes. Pay more attention to the calendar next time? Absolutely.
After our little adventure to Ross we got a tour of Crystal's new apartment! I'm thrilled for her, I think she'll really enjoy having her own space for once without two sisters or 7 other female roommates. {Disney College Program} It's a cute little one bedroom basement apartment that is her very own.
Side-note: Crazy to think that neither of us girls are living with parents anymore, it seems like not too long ago it's all we ever knew. Sometimes thinking about us making it to this part of adulthood freaks me out, but not in a bad way. It just hits me and I think "whoah I've been best friends with Crystal since we were 11 and we are now in our mid twenties...when did that happen?"

Since there is literally nothing exciting to do on a Sunday here we didn't have much else on our agenda. We drove around, talked, laughed and mainly enjoyed each others company which is completely fine with me. I don't see my friends as often as I used to so any time we can just get together is always good.

Awkward issue aside {which I'm fine with laughing about because I was dumb enough to not realize what cold have happened}Sunday was a pretty good day. I'm ready for the work week ahead of me!

Happy Monday friends!