twenty.four

Tomorrow is my birthday! {I guess technically today...I didn't get this post done before midnight haha}

Since we're all grown ups now and have jobs on Mondays {well, those of us who don't work retail...like me} I celebrated this weekend. Friday I got some people together and went to a bar to hang out. It was pretty low-key but I still had a good time! Plus I got to see some people that I haven't hung out with in awhile.

Yesterday I had a little party at my mom's best friend's house. She is such a hilarious person, and without a doubt one of the sweetest people I've ever met. My mom has been friends with her for years and she makes us feel like part of the family. I was asked what kind of party I wanted and I chose Disney Princesses. My mom's other bff, {who is practically my aunt, they've been friends since they were little} made me a cake with a bunch of princesses, a castle, and a tiara. It was the greatest.
Crystal and Jerrica came too!

Today wasn't really a birthday thing, but Taran and I went to my mom's house to have dinner and watch the season premier of Dexter.
It was a lovely, lazy Sunday and I really enjoyed it.

As far as birthdays go, I've always been a fan of mine. I like getting together with people to celebrate a day that's mine {a little narcissistic? eh. ;) }

And I won't lie, I like presents....hey, I'm only human!

Alone

Lately I have been feeling down and lonely. Life is so odd and I'm trying to grasp things but I can't seem to get a grip on anything. Everything around me is changing, making me feel anxious. I'm waiting on Taran to move in here, but he can't move in until my mom moves out and that is weird because all I've known in this house for the past 20 years is my mom going to bed in her room and waking up in the same room. Now it's going to be my room, our room, which I haven't quite gotten used to yet. Maybe because her bed is still here and I'm still sleeping in my room with my pink walls and my Fight Club poster next to my bed. Even though I've been alone the past few weeks it still doesn't feel like this is my own house now, I just feel lonely. Since we found out my grandma doesn't have much time I have consistently been losing my will to do simple things. I hate it. I can't stand feeling so down and I can't seem to pull myself out of it. When Taran isn't here it's just me and my dog, who makes me feel safe and loves me but she can't talk to me and understand me. I know it's a lot of adjusting to do, but change is hard for me, especially something this big.

I'm slowly trying to get myself out of my funk, trying not to feel so tired and down. Today I got up and cleaned up around the house and when I got home from work I decided to think of myself and try to enjoy the quiet alone-ness. I'm cuddled up on the couch in my comfy sweats and fuzzy socks. I am drinking a yummy drink with peach schnapps, watching one of my favorite shows and I'm going to vent my ass off in my journal. (Which...I guess I'm doing now too, but I put more personal things in the journal obviously.)

I know I have to get used to these changes in my life but before I can, I need to get myself happier and more motivated to do so. Life is funny, change is strange, but I'm doing my best.

Awkward & Awesome Thursday

Hi everyone! Remember me?
I used to blog here a lot, but then I got lazy and boring.

But here I am! And I'm doing an Awkward and Awesome post, because it's been a long time :)

AWKWARD:

• Waking up late and not having time to shave my legs or put any makeup on. Wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't so broke out right now :( I hate being 22 and having acne.
• Getting my hair trimmed and leaving with little hairs all over my face making me look like I need to shave or something. That went really well with the unshaven legs and no makeup.
• Waving at someone you hadn't seen in awhile, and having them not even recognize you. Yikes. I guess it had been awhile...
• Shopping around Rue 21 and getting a little to involved, resulting in forgetting to check the time on my phone. Luckily I finally did because I had to leave to go pick my brothers up from school. That's a true shopaholic there....
• Falling asleep with my phone in my hand, with the light on and randomly snapping out of it not realized what happened. Ever done that? I feel like such a dork when I'm suddenly jerked awake because it's kind of a dramatic act.

AWESOME:

• Getting my hair done! The purple in my hair was so weird...the strands that were dyed had about 1/2 an inch of grow-out, then the middle was a blonde color, and the tips were still dark purple! Crazy! So I decided to just do an all over chocolatey brown color for the fall, and got full bangs. Love it! 
• Seeing my hair girl, who gave birth to her adorable son the week after my last appointment. She told me all about being a mother and I loved seeing her so happy. She's adorable. 
• Free coffee drinks! Thanks Crystal ;)
• Walking out of Rue 21 {after putting my stuff on hold to run and get my brothers} with 4 shirts, a purse, 5 pairs of underwear and a t-shirt for Taran and only spending $30.
• Season premier of The Vampire Diaries was tonight! Man, I missed those dreamy vamps on my tv every Thursday. I have a feeling this season is going to be goooood.
• I GO TO DISNEYLAND ON SATURDAY.

*Happy dance*

Snip snip!

Hello!

Tomorrow morning I have a hair appointment, and I'm kind of on the fence about what to do.

I'm unsure if I should keep attempting to grow it and just get a trim and some color, or if I should chop it and do something funky with it again!

What do you all think?

These were all from this past year. I kept it mostly short all through 2010. I like that style a lot and I think it fits my personality, I'm just unsure if I should stay with that or not. I haven't grown my hair out in a long time and the last time it was semi-long was when I was in-between cuts.

The last time it was actually long was my senior year of high school, 4 years ago.

Here's some pictures of some longer styles.

Senior:

Early 2008:

Late 2008:

Wow! That took forever, but I won't lie...I got sidetracked looking at old pictures. Good memories in all those folders :)

What do you guys think!?