Thoughts on a Monday

March snow, it's inevitable in Utah

My "omelette"

I'm sitting here, eating the breakfast I made, (which was supposed to be an omelette, but turned into scrambled eggs with ham and jalapenos -- which, by the way, I had to text my mom to ask her how to tell when jalapenos are bad.)  and I started thinking. I haven't touched my blog in almost two years. It has just been this thing that I get emails about once in awhile. I thought recently about how I haven't written in so long. Then I had to dive into why I stopped writing. Is it because I got bored? Or is it because I was afraid of being boring? I would spend hours reading through other's blogs, clicking links that would take me to another one, and another one, and another one. I would think "these people have such entertaining lives. Their pictures are flawless and their entire page is gorgeous.
Before I stopped writing, a friend of mine revamped my blog and made it look much better than anything I could try to do. The fact is, I'm terrible at computers. Graphic design, and codes, and editing. It's just not my thing.
So, I start to feel a little embarrassed of my own silly blog. I would take outfit photos, but they seemed so "meh".

And then after two years and some serious yearning for expression, I realized: who. fucking. cares? This is my blog. This is my space. My voice needs to escape because that is one way I can release my stress and anxiety.

Here's the thing: I love fashion. I don't get paid to express my love of fashion. But I'm gonna.
I love writing. I'm gonna.
I have a voice, and I'm going to use it. Or in this case, type it.

My life is not glamorous, I work in retail for crying out loud. But I have things to say, and finally I can stop caring about comparing myself to others. It may have taken me 20 something years to accept that, but here it is. I don't care if you think I'm boring, I don't care if you subscribe, or comment, or laugh, or think. This is going to be my place. I can be as silly, or weird, or deep as I want to be. I miss the feeling of getting it all out there.

So, stay tuned. Or don't.
It's gonna happen.

Mr. & Mrs. Griffith

That's right! I am officially a married woman, and I couldn't be happier!
My simple, small, planned-in-a-week wedding was perfect and I wouldn't have changed a thing, because no matter what I was standing at an alter looking my now husband in the eyes and vowing to spend the rest of my life with him. That's perfection to me.
Not everyone got to make it, but everyone was so understanding about the situation and it makes me feel so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends. I am grateful for the people who were able to come and share our special day with us.
Even more than grateful I am elated. My grandma was there and she looked beautiful, proud, happy...just what I wanted. She even got to sign our marriage certificate as a witness, so that is one thing I will be able to cherish for the rest of my life.

After the wedding we all went to a restaurant called "ParkStone Wood Kitchen" in Farmington. It was pretty good and laid back, nothing to fancy but I had a great time with everyone. My awesome boss/photographer joined in on every part and she captured some fantastic pictures. Outside of the restaurant they were building a gorgeous courtyard type thing with fountains and a fireplace so we got some good shots there. I'm excited to see the rest! Especially all the family pictures.

My dad and stepmom pitched in to get us a honeymoon suite at a fancy hotel in Salt Lake City. The room was very nice, and they gave us a free bottle of wine, plus $10 credit to the food in the room {I forget what it's called...oops}. The hotel also offered a free wine hour in the lobby so Taran and I went down to have a couple glasses. The assistant general manager gave us his card, told us congratulations and gave us a $50 dining credit to our room. He was such a nice guy and we weren't expecting that, but they know how to take care of newlyweds :)

It was such a perfect day. I am so happy with how it ended up and I'm so happy to have such a wonderful husband. I've waited for this day for so long and now we are finally married and, although it doesn't feel too different, I love being a wife!